| So... tired. |
[Aug. 25th, 2006|05:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Aerosmith | ] |
Just finished school things and was bored before work. Work til 3:15am then go in at 10:30am. Yay me.
Toodles yo. |
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| Abashed the Devil stood, And felt how awful goodness is, and saw Virtue in her own |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|05:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  relaxed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pilate - Barely Listening | ] |
My mind is a bit clearer today, so this rather pointless entry (used mainly for future personal recollections of the past) won't be so.... off.
After quite a few years of working with fish tanks, I do believe I have finally reached the point of great satisfaction. A great deal of time and money has finally paid off. Though it was all very much fun (besides the death of a few beloved aquatic friends), I believe that I accidentally stumbled upon a good mix of fish. For the first time I have a fish tank that looks alive and happy. It might seem odd that I am so caught up in an excited fish tank, however, its rejuvenating to watch this little marine-like society. It does a great deal to my own mental health to take a few moments every so often and sit down just to watch in wonder at the bliss that shines in that one tank. I wish the tank my best and I will do all that I can to ensure great quality. The occupants of the tank are as follows:
- 1 Blue Dwarf Gourami
- 2 Plecos (Algae Eaters)
- 2 Snails (Either golden mystery snails or apple snails, yet to be determined.)
- On a side note, my oldest snail has survived most of my fish tanks to date. He, along with my elder turtle, are the greatest survivors I have ever known.
- 4 Fancy Guppies
- 4 Long Skirt Tetras
- 2 Black Kouhli Loaches
- 2 Violet Goby Dragon Eels
- 2 Angel Fish
- 2 Orange Mollys
The tank itself has shown great improvement over the years, physically speaking. An added castle and fake plants has done an impressive job at coloring the tank well. As for water quality, a bubble tower in the corner of the tank, the usual heater, and a very powerful external marineland filter at the heart of the operation has cleared the water to a shimmering crystal clear tank. Of course, the incandescent lighting also helps that clear image. The past couple of weeks has given me worry towards the water quality. A cloudiness could be seen towards the center of the tank for far too long, however the new filter as well as a nutrient supplement has cleared that up miraculously.
A new concern of mine is my turtle tanks. As a quick recap, I have 5 turtles. Two weeks ago, I had 6... let me explain my situation. I acquired a turtle when I was very young, around 13-14 years ago. Since that day she has been living comfortably in a 20 gallon tank filled with 3 inches of water (besides the random trips outside during the summer to get a good share of natural sunlight and to stretch her little legs). She is a Mexican mud turtle, not exactly a common breed. Also, as a quick side note, she is one cranky turtle. Moving on, about 3 or so years ago, I purchased 4 Red Ear Sliders to add to my turtle collection. They have survived the difficulties of infancy, under my care, and are doing great. As time seems to effect even the shelled ones, they have grown significantly. So very soon their once modest tank will be up for auction amongst my zoo and they will have a Better Homes and Gardens upgrade. While this transformation is in the planning (and saving) phase there is still the matter of my eldest and her current condition. What condition is that may you ask? I wish I knew. A quick story for you; Whilst cleaning my tanks one day, like all my other rash zoological decisions are derived from, I decided to take advice given to heart and acquire a sixth shelled youngling. Now remember, my 4 ninja turtle wanna-be's occupy one tank, my elder crank-o occupies the other. This sixth brain tumor to my collection will be put with the eldest. I wanted to see if company would do her spirits any good. She has become slow and well... depressed. Yes, its quite possible to see happiness and depression in even a shelled wonder of the reptile world. To my amazement, it had a great affect. She took the small turtle under her care, offering it protection as well as a rock moving playmate. My aquatic Martha Stewart finally had a cell buddy. The color in her skin became more vibrant and energy long past finally escaped its once thought demise. She was, for a lack of a better word, happy. Not only was she happy, the young one seemed to enjoy nothing more than swimming circles along the tanks perimeter as well as taking rides on top of the eldest turtles back. The caretaker of these frolicking reptiles, me, was also very happy with this new development.
A short while ago I discovered the young miracle worker floating atop a submersible filter. My once happy turtle was alone yet again. Her vibrant colors have now faded and her food intake has decreased significantly. She once again runs from sight when I approach the tank. Things have returned to what they once were. If any of you have ever been forced to see the movie Sweet November, its the only comparison thinkable. I don't know how my little buddy passed on. I honestly have very little clues. I have never lost a turtle before, its age also playing a factor towards my discomfort. As I have noted before, infancy for turtles is the hardest part of their lives. The first year is absolutely crucial towards their physical development. They are born with a devastatingly weak immune system which quickly strengthens over time. Would this be the cause of my new friend's demise? I honestly don't know the answer. I wish I did. To "replace" him would be the ideal plan of action. However, I don't want to jump into something so rash until I once again have confidence. Not being rash is entirely against my self-known character. I have had luck being rash, now that luck streak has been shattered, horrifically. There is still another complication. While I am twiddling my thumbs over my sudden lack of confidence, my turtle's health my be diminishing. When two animals share any form of emotional bonding, the death of one can be devastating to the other. Who knows what time may be like towards these animals, their could have been a significant amount of bonding between the two shelled twin dragons. To replace him in the same manner I acquired him after a bit of tank maintenance to re-ensure maximum water quality or wait until my confidence level reaches a safe peak? I wish I knew what to do.
So that would be the news from the animal kingdom.
Recently I received a promotion at work. Lucky me? I think not. The only true benefit of waking up at 3 am every morning to work for 9 hours is the ability to spend money more leisurely. If anyone has ever pretended to know me, I can make checks disappear before your very eyes. I'm a new age Houdini. Lately, I had a burst of spending rage fueled by the knowledge of my increase in wage. Of course it would be temporary, the rage that is. I figured it was a gift to myself for putting up with certain people for almost a year now. So quick the flight of time. So sad the loss of memories. With my fire like rage, I purchased a new computer and a hand held component to follow suite. My ridiculous Media Center PC does everything besides ... well...a massage. I'm confident that I can purchase such an add-on to allow for that in the near future. Here is a spec run down for you fellow geeks out there;
4.4 Ghz 64 bit dual processing. 1 GB SDRAM, 500 GB hard drive ( 250 internal, 250 portable external), Dual Layer DVD-RW, 8 in 1 media port, 6 usb 2.0 ports, 4 fire wire (I see no point in the usb and fire wire ports being that extensive). 256MB NVIDIA GeForce graphics card w/tv tuner (two coax cable inputs for antennae as well as cable transmissions) and s-video output. For my sound system, Dolby Digital 5.1 surround sound speakers hooked up to both my TV/DVD Player/Computer(Media Center) through my external sound card... the Extigy. Creative's own prophecy fulfilled.
I dual screened my computer using the s-video out into my tv. My media center remote now turns all my downloaded lovelies into the coolest Tivo rip off... ever. Not only do I have power by remote in my hands, my hand held component, the beloved Palm T/X gives me freedom of mobility farther than I ever imagined. This seemingly couple thousand dollar set-up was possible with a near 700 dollars final cost. I also added some extra storage for the hand held as well as a new case. If I could only bless thee, TigerDirect.com.
My idea of giving you this information is not to rub in anything. It is souly to encourage you to experiment with your credit card. I rate these products highly. With the cost of this technological advance, I come troubled with the sudden lack of true mobility, my car. It is pretty safe to say that the added cost of my rage as well as a few dvd sets here and there and some good meals and books have frozen my wallet for a short while. After my store hopping was complete, my vehicle.. my ride to freedom, decided that it no longer wanted tires to have rubber on them. Then, as I have just noticed recently, has banned coolant from the land of the neon. My wretched Neon Expresso has been through a lot with me. Too much to be exact. Far far too much. Its age and miles are greater than most. Not to mention the 2 inch thick pile of mechanical bills thrown into my mobile demon. It is popular consensus that I look into buying a new car. I have been waiting for the Dodge Calibur to make its debut among the public for a short while now. So, time to really start saving. My car has been my noble steed for what seems to be ages upon ages. The thought of leaving its side really saddens me. That sadness is abruptly taken away when power steering fails at 60 mph. I salute you, winged demon. May you find better luck among a more capable (wallet-wise) motorist.
Next week I, as well as my demonic steed, am going to Lexington for a few days to work on a child's camp. I'm really looking forward to this opportunity to do good for the public as well as a bit of freedom from school and work. Sleep in what now? This camp is a large one. 18, 90 year old, cabins need work that has never been done to them before. I hope this can stretch my wings a little towards any form of charity. Something I desperately need. Another thing that I am working on is the Relay for Life in Dearborn, Mi. An American Cancer Society event that raises money towards the treatment of cancer. I mistakingly accepted the position of Team Captain for Starbucks. I felt a moment of weakness that now shows my true art of procrastination. When this is over, I am going to learn how to do cartwheels so that I may grace the streets of Allen Park for days. This event, however, is great. 24 hours of fun filled activities that I believe everyone should join in on.
With my mind occupied with working, animals and sponsorships, school has been left with little room in my current state. Sadly, I believe I am not doing as well as I should. My motivation was shot recently to learn that if I complete my transfer to Wayne State Univ. I will lose two classes worth of credits that I'm actually taking right now. It hurts. I'm paying a decent amount of money and time for classes that will mean nothing the second I walk out after finals. So sad the melody of education in this country. It hurts. Oh well, my eyes retain fixed on graduation within a university. I really hope for the best with this transfer. I need it. My education has been lacking since kindergarten. I would honesty appreciate the intellectual boost. To further myself than this slump I have remained in for years now. In high school, its hard to believe that I actually thought myself well for taking college classes after my high school classes were out for the day. Now as I see my peers surpass me grade levels due to my switching of majors and schools is a very difficult thing. I went into college with a large credit advantage and now I am finding that its time for me to play catch up. I am going to be 20 years old soon. It serves as the greatest annoyance that I have yet to reach my goals yet. My largest goal being the time limit I set of living independence as well as a foot in the door towards my career is fast approaching. I fear it will soon pass and I will find myself still lost in this crazy place. There is one thing right now that leads my sanity, once thought lost.
Most of my time is spent thinking about one person. I find that no matter what is going on, she is there for me. A vast improvement over historical events. That, of course, has little relevance to my feelings. Someone that I have a mutual understanding with. Someone that, god forbids, knows me. I have spent a lot of time in the past believing that no one would know me even close to how I know myself. Before her, that stood very true. Now, I have to overcome the thought that I am readable. If there is one person that I wish to be able to read me, I found her. And to my utter amazement, it's working. My heart finally beats for another, very loudly. It's only honest of me to admit that I love her. A very large piece of my life's puzzle has been put in place. Things are starting to come together. Now, it's time to sit back and see how this life of mine plays out. How this story will end is thankfully unknown. All I can offer the pages is waking up every morning and living my life to the fullest. I only write this as a reminder to myself. Don't stop being who I am. So far, being myself has gained me a great deal. I can express my true self as far as I'd like. I can't forget that. So if you find me with a top hat on, a cane around my arm dancing down the street like Gene Kelly, let me be. I just had to express myself for the moment.
If any of you actually spent time reading through this, wow. I refuse to put an cuts in this piece. If I oh so sadly annoy people by taking up too much space on your "Friends" page, you know what to do. I just felt the need to cover myself in that aspect. Alright, I'm off to work on cancer society related things.
Be Happy.
Be Healthy.
Don't give into methodological sanity.
Sayonara
~Matt |
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| Oh yea... I have a Live Journal. How effing sad. |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|05:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 24 | ] |
I keep forgetting about having this thing. I read my "Friends" page as a source of either interest or ridiculous comedy once in awhile, thats about it.
Stuck at work all the time. Sickening sadness.
Hate .. HATE where I am at in school. Intellectual sadness.
Started playing WoW. Yep, sadness.
Addicted to the show 24... again. More time consuming sadness.
Barely get to see Sarah. Much Sadness.
When I do..
I'm pretty happy. |
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| Yep... got a new pet. |
[Mar. 14th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
I call him Wolfie. He is mine. He is my Wolfie.
Thanks Sarah! |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 4th, 2006|05:07 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | The Whole Nine Yards | ] |
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"There's an old saying in Tennessee I know it's in Texas, probably in Tennessee that says, fool me once, shame on shame on you. Fool me twice you can't get fooled again."
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>
Today has been an overly shitty day so far. I need to take a walk... |
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| A final thought for 2005 |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|07:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
Fuck You 2005. FUCK.....YOU.
On that note, I hope that most of you end up looking like this tonight. To think that we all have to relive another year. Bring on the shots! |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|05:10 pm] |
Describe me with one picture. Then put this declaration of madness in your own journal. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|11:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
Rest in Peace Pat Morita. "Klinger's husband". |
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| Heeey... teacher..... |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|10:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Michael Buble - Sway | ] |
That is all. |
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| .... The joke's getting really old. |
[Nov. 15th, 2005|06:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Zucchero - Ali D’Oro | ] |
Alright,
This whole "not being able to sleep thing" is getting a wee bit ridiculous. Yea, it was almost funny the first week or so, but man... come on now. Its nearly 7am and I've clocked in maybe.. MAYBE 2 hours of horribly interrupted sleep. Of course the only thing interrupting it is me waking up for no freaking reason.
I walk downstairs about a half hour ago to see my Dad getting out of the shower. I haven't been awake to see that in ages.... it disgusts me. Not my Dad.... but having pure cognitive activity that isn't dealing with giant turtles and a fish in a chair. (You might not one to ask about that one.) Even Zucchero and the late John Lee Hooker aren't doing the trick.... at this point guys... I don't even know. Im scared to put a boring movie in to try and fall asleep to. I have a sick feeling im going to stay awake through the entire thing.... and it will hurt.
As horrible as this sounds to myself... I wish I had classes this early... I'm bored.
Oh well. GOOD MORNING PEOPLES!
Ok, off to go smash my head through the nearest wall. Have a good day!
Byes.
~Matt
P.S. Im far too lazy and apathetic towards reading through to see grammer or spelling mistakes. So... deal with them. Love them.. embrace them. It is now your culture. Use it... abuse it. |
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| Short post as im ridiculously tired and bored before work. |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|09:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
Yesterday was muy fun.
Best Chinese Restraunt I've ever eaten at.
( A few pictures from Heritage Park )
Working 10:30 to 4am.
Tomorrow might be West Wing Marathon followed by the live Alan Alda/Jimmy Smits debate.
If not, its Matt sits at home all day staring at the wall... followed by the live Alan Alda/Jimmy Smits debate.
Im all registered for my classes. Excellant schedule.. so it should work out alright.
Hmmm... nothing else really to say.
Have a good night everyone and a good tomorrow. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 4th, 2005|02:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Street Drum Corps Feat. Bert McCracken - Happy Christmas (War Is Over) -- Yea, I just love this song | ] |
Hey peoples...
Is anything going on tomorrow/today (friday)?
If so, I have no work or school and would love to accompany people on whatever... if they wish for the company.
Let me know.
~Matt |
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| Hello World of the LJ |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|03:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Santana - Put Your Lights On | ] |
I realized how often I read journals yet never make an actual post.
-With that in mind I figured it was due time to torture you.
Im pretty sure the average LJ user has something to actually say when making a post. Eh, thats too sensible.
So excuse me while I be random.
I got a bill yesterday for $800 from ol hank high. I have no idea what its from but it looks like I can't get my car for another month or so. The money I had saved up for the down payment is now being routed towards schmool. Curses education....... curse you.
I spent the better part of today laying around doing nothing. Its pretty rare that I get a chance to do that. For the most part it was fun, then came the energy that I wasn't successfully burning off. So where do I go? Oh yea... starbucks. I ended up going to see Saw 2 again with Mark and Fufi. The parts Fufi was actually awake for didn't seem to bother him at all. Mark on the other hand was pretty entertaining to watch. I focused more of my attention on reactions of people around me than the movie itself. I wanted to see how things tied in with eachother more, however the idea of having to see certain parts again wasn't too fun. Atleast I knew when to avert the eyes.
Hmmm... what else. Oh, I randomly bought a pack of playing cards while at the gas station today. So if anyone has the sudden urge to play a card game... I come prepared!
Me wishes me could sleep.
I have a test at 11am. Not too bad. I studied, so I am prepared for whatever. My lowest grade being a 95, I think I'll do fine in that class.
I have my schedule for next semester picked out, now to just pay off that ridiculously random bill so I can register. Oy. I've decided on taking all of my classes on just Tuesday and Thursday so I can better manage time for work, school, homework, family time and personal life. Now this is going to involve me obtaining a personal life. I have no idea as to how im going to accomplish that last part but I'm going to give it the old college kid try. (I think that implies that after I fail I will sit down to hours and hours of gaming.)
Might I also just randomly add that the deleted scenes in Revenge of the Sith are hilarious. I highly recommend the first one.
For the past few weeks I have been teaching a murals class thingamabobber covering Ford Financed murals, Federal Arts Project murals under President Roosevelt, and modern murals painted within the decade. It was a ton of fun. My last classes were monday. I trully miss them a lot. It's always fun to ask questions that urge children to think outside of the box. Im always amazed at the answers. Im going to have to volunteer for these types of activities more often.
Next week I only work 26 hours. Can someone say "Vacation"? I certainly can. "Vacation" implying that I might have more time to be around friends. Its the only way to save my sanity and I deeply appreciate any time I have with them.
I've had a ridiculous urge to watch anime lately. Its been a very long time since I've enjoyed anything artsy in that aspect. Time to break the anime-less streak.
Hmm... I think thats enough randomness for one night. Its getting late and I'm not concentrating enough to talk about anything going on in my life. I could go on explaining how I've been doing word searches left and right to prevent boredom and idleness of the brain but, see, thats just boring and commenting on it serves no purpose.
Have a good night/day everyone. Give me a call or IM me if you want to do something. I need... something.. in my life. So... help me find it! |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Billy Joel - Billy Joel - Only The Good Die Young | ] |
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIM BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK.
+2 of these suckers added to my tank.
=
2 Angelfish
2 Bala Sharks
1 Pleco (getting so large im scared of him)
1 very old snail.
Other tanks include:
1 Fire Bellied Newt
Tons of little colorful baby guppies.
4 red ear slider turtles
1 mexican mud turtle
2 gold fish older than moses.
Wow, I haven't stepped foot into a petstore since beginning of this year. Christ.
Since I can barely take care of myself, I think fish are the only things ill shoot for.
I still wish you well my white dumpy friend.
Party tonight.. woop woop! |
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| Saw 2 |
[Oct. 29th, 2005|03:31 am] |
Dear LORD:
I nearly crashed my car today coming back from the movie.
I am very freaked out.
I hate humanity because of this.
AeffinMEN |
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| Elisa Day.... |
[Oct. 13th, 2005|03:04 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Leonard Cohen-Nick Cave- - where the wild roses grow | ] |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| destiny_absent goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Batman. | | barenakedfan gives you 11 mauve strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy. | | beefyboy184 tricks you! You get a wad of paper. | | jdizzle916 gives you 1 blue vanilla-flavoured gummy worms. | | matt630 tricks you! You lose 8 pieces of candy! | | meghan_solo gives you 3 yellow grapefruit-flavoured gummy worms. | | nekobob tricks you! You get a clothespin. | | neurocistance tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy! | | shuggypie89 gives you 13 mottled green banana-flavoured jawbreakers. | | viperstingblue gives you 19 teal evil-flavoured nuggets. | | wtfomg tricks you! You get a wad of paper. | | destiny_absent ends up with 34 pieces of candy, a wad of paper, a clothespin, and a wad of paper. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
Ian, stop being cheap and stealing from everyone. Seriously now.
Life is weird. Nuff Said. |
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| Still alive... sorta. |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|07:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  weird | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Chemical Romance | ] |
I just slept for 16 hours.
Hell of some dreams. Mostly in the nightmarish "Kill Me" category.
Yesterday was probably one of the better days i've ever had off. If the day, however, ended at about midnight. After that, not so much fun.
Started the day off by sleeping in, the best start to anything.. ever. I dragged myself to starbucks to meet up with some people and went to an Arabic Barbeque.
Dear God Delicious.
Afterwards we just hung out for a few hours talking, joking, smoking, thinking, laughing. It was a ton of fun.
That was followed by the a Tiger's game with my brother, sister and her boyfriend. If Tiger's didn't royally suck, it may have been even better. However Monroe's over the wall catch, i think in the 7th, made the game for me. Twas a ton of fun.
After that, the plan was for me to get pretty toasted. I haven't touched a bottle of anything in nearly three weeks. I sit before this monitor to proclaim that that still stands true besides a drop of the Peppermint Schnapps on my tongue. And by drop, I mean... litterally a drop. Im really not upset with that either. Since I stopped, I really haven't been in the mood or mindset to drink. Now if only the people I was with felt that way too. My friends decided to hit Jose Cuervo a bit too hard, thus Matt had to play responsible and drive people around. It ended up me half asleep in a chair at starbucks waiting for two drunks to sober up enough to possibly drive home or just pass out all together in their cars and have me hide the keys on them so i'd have to call them in the morning when i believe them sober enough to drive and let them know where I put the keys. The last one there is the one that was put into motion. I was far too tired to sit around starbucks anymore, I really didn't want to be there that much last night.. on my day off. Besides one guy finding his keys and driving the other home and himself (he was the much more sober of the two, which I don't mind as much), the plan worked. The Benz however had to sleep over at starbucks.
Im looking forward to Sunday. Corpse Bride better be amazing. Im not going to hope for it being as good as Nightmare before Christmas.. because.. well.. it won't. Tim Burton definately isn't getting better in my eyes, so I don't have THAT much hope in the movie, but it does look good.
Alas I have to work and then go play DD for moronic high school students.
Take care people. Take the "care"... love it... caress it... give it all it desires. |
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